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Tuesday, November 2nd, 2004
8:39 pm - Hehe I'm a tough bastard!
Take the quiz: "Which Random Irish Gaelic Phrase Are You? "

Pog mo thoin
Pog mo thoin - 'Kiss my ass.'You're one tough bastard, and if anyone doesn't like it, they can kiss your ass. You enjoy fighting and causing grievous bodily harm. Hey! What are you lookin' at, punk?

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Sunday, October 24th, 2004
8:41 pm - Once again confirms my geekness. :P
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Tuesday, October 19th, 2004
2:59 am - See?!? I am Evil!!!

What Kind of Geek are You?
Favourite Color
Your IQ is high
You are a word nerd
Your strength is you can see in the dark
Your weakness is chocolate
You think normal people are strange
Normal people think that you are satanic
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Monday, October 4th, 2004
11:28 pm - Vampires are spiffy. :P
You are Form 9, Vampire: The Undying.

"And The Vampire was all that remained on
the blood drowned creation. She attempted to
regrow life from the dead. But as she was
about to give the breath of life, she was
consumed in the flame of The Phoenix and the
cycle began again."

Some examples of the Vampire Form are Hades (Greek)
and Isis (Egyptian).
The Vampire is associated with the concept of
death, the number 9, and the element of fire.
Her sign is the eclipsed moon.

As a member of Form 9, you are a very realistic
individual. You may be a little idealistic,
but you are very grounded and down to earth.
You realize that not everything lasts, but you
savor every minute of the good times. While
you may sometimes find yourself lonely, you
have strong ties with people that will never be
broken. Vampires are the best friends to have
because they are sensible.

Which Mythological Form Are You?
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11:21 pm - Never could figure these damn things out. I wanna be a slip and slide *evil grin*
You're Rubik's Cube!! You may think you're
popular, but you're actually extremely
annoying. Seriously.

What childhood toy from the 80s are you?
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11:14 pm - Mmmm human brains....yummy!
You are a Return of the Living Dead Zombie. You
were brought back from the grave by exposure to
245-Trioxin. You crave the heavenly taste of
spicy brains to stop the pain of being dead.
You are virtually indestructible, as even
burning you up will create Zombie Rain and
raise more zombies.

What kind of Zombie are you?
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11:09 pm - Hmm more of that useless trivia?
Congratulations you have achieved level 4 witch
status... you have studied hard and learned

What Level of Witch are you
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11:04 pm - Um ya right...
You're Brigitte Bardot!

What Classic Pin-Up Are You?
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10:59 pm - More anime crappola...
You have a free soul! As all the souls go, yours is
the most free-spirited and adventurous. You
like camping, hiking, or interaction with other
people. Your a social butterfly, but not
because of your style, but because of your
willingness to communicate with everyone. You
probably have close friends who can rely on you
because you always seem to know whats going on
in the world. You love music and are
free-spirited and someone fun to be around. A
born leader and great explorer-dont ever
change-the world needs more people like you.

What Kind of SOUL do you posses? (For Girls only) Incredible Anime Pictures!
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10:51 pm - Ooohh! Do I get to wear the cool leather outfit?
SELENE: You are selene!
Beautiful, vivacious,
fierce and seductive, Selene vowed she would
destroy Lycans after her family was murdered by
the werewolves. So ruthless is she that selene
is a member of the Death Dealers. This elite
Vampire warrior class's mission is to make the
Lycans extinct.
Ever wish you could be a

Which UNDERWORLD character are you?
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10:45 pm - Bow down before me puny mortals! *insert evil laugh here*
Goddess of the Night. Beautiful yet a strange
darkness and sadness lurk about you.

What element would you rein over? (For Girls)
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10:35 pm - purple eyes...weird
Your eyes should be purple. Your a dreamer and a
fantasy lover, a true believer in your thoughts
and dreams. Your intuitive and love to write,
read, and have deep thoughts. Just make sure
you don't wind up dreaming your life away..

What Color Eyes Should You Have? ( With Anime Pictures ^-^ )
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10:26 pm - K got this one off of Pixie's LJ :)

What's YOUR sexual fetish?
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Wednesday, September 29th, 2004
11:41 pm - Feelin a wee bit burnt out...
So once again I've waited till the last minute to complete an essay. Both Risen and Pixie know all about this habit of self-inflicted suffering. Now I can probably list a few different occasions where working on this dumb essay would have been a "good" idea, but whenever those occasions came up all I really wanted to do was relax or distract myself. Even now when I know I'll probably be up all night typing the damn thing up, I still look for activities to distract myself. I had to turn the television off because I know I'd lose whole hours to movies I've prolly (probably for non-evercrack addicts) seen a dozen too many times.

Let me tell you a little about my day and maybe I can gain useless sympathy from the half dozen people who actually read my posts. :P I woke up feeling tired,grumpy, and alone. While taking my shower the hot water ran out just as I was rinsing my hair out, so I had that wonderful feeling of too much conditioner all day long (hence greasy and oily hair). Driving to work under a cloudy, gray sky I listened to the radio. Pink Floyd came on and I realized that I just wanted to be back under the covers in bed "comfortably numb".

Arriving at work I check my business mail and come to find out that a huge 5 day sale needed to be set up that morning and that none of the preparations had been made for it the night before. While running around ragged trying to set the signage, displays, and plot my sales figures I received a phone call. My first employee of the day lets me know she's gonna be a half hour late. Normally that wouldnt be so bad, but what if my supervisor walked in and only half of my promotions are set up? She does eventually show up and helps me finish.

As I've stated in the past, I'm out of PTO (paid time off) and so I work extra long shifts sometimes. Today was supposed to be a 12 hr day. My second employee showed up over three hours late which pushed my huge project back a couple hours. This also meant that I was not able to take my 2nd lunch break which I was gonna use to work on my paper a bit (ya right). It also meant that in order to complete this huge project I had that I'd have to work later. I ended up working from 930am till 1030pm. I did have a lunch break (30 min) and took 10 min to talk on the phone with my boyfriend. Speaking with him was the only enjoyable part of my day.(Love ya honey!)So now I'm feeling pretty damn tired and find myself glaring at my books more than reading them.

Looking back at my original journal entry I realize that I redirect my bitterness of past disappointments onto myself. It's almost as if in failing everything I do (and by failing I mean not completing it as well, or committing myself to something as much as I should have) there is proof or validation of my usually unexpressed self-hatred. Perhaps a few of you will just tell me its just pure laziness, but perhaps its just avoiding future decisions and responsibilities. I've pointed out to friends numerous times "the list" of things I demand to have in place before I will commit to life altering changes. By failing everything now, I never really progress to the point that I will have to deal with those changes.

Even now, when I am with somebody who seems to genuinely care for me I question and prod him about his "true" feelings. Almost as if I'm waiting to hear the dismissal so that I can return to my empty "popular" life. When there is only one focus of happiness in your life you tend to cling to it with all your might. I don't want a focus of happiness. A ray of light in darkness will guide you until its extinguished, when that light is taken away from you you realize that you've become dependant on it to know your path. Its absence leaves you helpless and alone until you gain your night vision again. I dont want to be blinded or hurt again.

Enough bitterness for one night, off to work on my paper. Wish me luck, I'm sure I'll need it.

current mood: depressed

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Tuesday, September 28th, 2004
4:19 pm - As if I didnt already know.
You are the most important person in his life. He would do anything to see you smile. Actually, he would be the PERFECT boyfriend. Always getting lost in your eyes, always treating you
You are the most important person in his life. He
would do anything to see you smile. Actually,
he would be the PERFECT boyfriend. Always
getting lost in your eyes, always treating you
like a princes and always saying a joke to make
you laugh your head off while he smiles at your
hysteric laughter. Yup, he is the person you
were destined to fall in love with.

What kind of boyfriend would you have?(with pics and obviously for girls^^)
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4:12 pm - K Who doesn't like kittens?

If you were a cat!
Name / Username
Your age would be: 6 weeks
You would look like:
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4:09 pm - Here I thought for sure I'd get the depressed one. :P
You represent... hope.
You represent... hope.
You're quite a daydreamer and can be a hopeless
romantic. You enjoy being creative and don't
mind being alone at times. You have goals, and
know what you want in life... even if they are
a little far fetched.

What feeling do you represent?
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4:00 pm - I never flirt! *wink wink*
cute flirt
Cute Flirt

What Kind of FLIRT are you?
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Saturday, September 11th, 2004
12:35 am - Long time no entry...
So life gets hectic and crazy sometimes...Let's see...since my last posting I've been promoted at my job, found a man that I love, and managed to organize myself enough that I'm able to juggle the both of them with school. I think I'm doing ok at times but often I feel that I'm not giving 100% to anything.

I am happy though, most of the time. My boyfriend is probably to blame for that. He's kind,intelligent,attractive,thoughtful, and perfect for me. :) I'm waiting for the inevitable moment where he realizes everything wrong with me. (Yes I've been told I'm my own worst critic but these are valid issues/baggage that I have) Clingy/needy/jealous behavior, impatience, paranoia, lack of self-confidence, and family issues. Enough to scare off most guys if fully exposed to them. I've not hidden any of these things because honestly I can't control them anymore, not while keeping everything else together. Relationships are supposed to be relaxing and totally enjoyable. There have only been a few blips in ours and I worry that I've caused them by being too sensitive or not being understanding enough. For now I'm just trying to let it be what it is and hope the end doesnt come soon than later.

Work isnt too bad. With the new store I've taken I'm able to schedule around a school schedule and am doing decently enough per my boss. A few issues here or there, ironed out and taken care of. Sometimes its stressful trying to keep in mind everything going on between work and school. Too many tasks, not enough time or employees. I'm out of my paid time off, so now I must crunch extra time in where possible anytime I want an extra day off, it sucketh.

School is ok. My english and history teachers are hella boring, and they decided display their sadistic streaks by assigning two essays due within the same week. Luckily they dont require attendance, just assignments that need to be turned in daily. My anthro class was supposed to start on thurs but it was cancelled. Figures eh? The one class I'm sure I wouldnt fall asleep in. :( The increase in tuition sucked as well, but I guess that's what we get for having Arnold as a governator "It's not a tumor"

Havent spoken to most of my buddies in a while, and while I know you guys tend not to post, just let me know once in a blue moon that you're out there. (Or call me sometime)Gotta run, sleep seems to sneak up on ya when the caffeine wears off.

~Into the darkness may you fade, lighties' blood upon your blade~

current mood: stressed

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Monday, July 19th, 2004
1:31 am - hmm doesnt exactly say psycho :P
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Schizoid |||||||||||| 46%
Schizotypal |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Antisocial |||||||||||||||||| 74%
Borderline |||||||||||||| 54%
Histrionic |||||||||||||||| 66%
Narcissistic |||||||||||| 50%
Avoidant |||||||||||||||| 70%
Dependent |||||| 30%
Obsessive-Compulsive |||||| 30%
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